During the last 3-4 weeks, I have been working harder and longer than usual at my 2 jobs. I have little room for sleep and most of my free time has been hectic.
Most of my interests and hobbies have been put on hold while I was consumed on eliminating the remaining debt I have. This has had a big impact on my fiancee, who misses the free time we had together on some week nights and most weekends. She has also not been shy about letting me know that I am wasting my life at work and not enjoying life with her and with whatever else I could use my time for.
I brushed this off, I thought that I just wasn’t properly managing my free time and I could find ways to better the situation. Over time, I realized that this isn’t possible because of one simple fact.
You cannot manage time.
Time is not something that can be managed. We cannot control when it is night time or any other time of day and we can’t experience a time in the past that we enjoyed again in the exact same way. Time does not listen to us, it was here long before us and will exist long after we pass from this Earth.
What we can manage is ourselves. We should all view time as a lesson. Think back a day, a month or a year from now and you will find lots of time wasted in pursuit of materialistic goals and days wasted working and doing things that we really did not want to do.
Sure, paying off debt is a great thing and everyone should be debt free in most circumstances. Is working 2 jobs worth it? I am really questioning my time spent and might return to a single job lifestyle sooner then I have planned.
Money can be gained or lost, but lost time is gone forever.